So in my post about my new adventure I sounded all motivated and excited and promised updates about my travel planning and how I’m getting on with clearing debt and saving money etc. That post was followed by one more and then SILENCE. Don’t worry though, I’m still excited and definitely still planning to go travelling at the end of next year but the actual plans themselves are on hold for a little while. And by plans, I mean me reading countless travel guides and scribbling away furiously in various notebooks (all of which have been bought to satisfy my stationery addiction).
I know that most people will be laughing at the fact that I was even making plans for a trip that’s over a year away but the planning is what’s keeping me going at the moment. Planning which countries I want to visit and what I want to see, do, eat and experience when I’m there is half of the adventure for me. Anyone who knows me will know that I’m totally obsessed with lists and planning and stationery and spreadsheets so planning my travels is like a dream in itself. I’m fairly confident that I’ll enjoy the actual travelling part too, but for now, I’m focused on enjoying the planning as much as possible!
Anyway, there’s been a lot going on in my little world recently so I haven’t been able to dedicate time to working on my plans like I had wanted to. In addition to this, a change in circumstances means that my saving hit a bit of speed bump last month which actually made me panic at the time – my anxious mind took one month of not being able to save an extra bit of money to mean that all my dreams of ever going travelling were over. I know that that’s completely irrational but try telling my brain that. It’s one of those things that you have to learn to deal with when you have depression – no matter what logical you thinks, you will always think the worse no matter how ridiculous it is. So, in a state of irrational panic, I downed tools and put a lot of things to one side, including travel planning and blogging generally (which is why I’ve been fairly quiet on here recently).
After a couple of weeks of not thinking about money or travelling, I’m back on track. My Instagram account (please feel free to check it out and follow me if you like what you see) is full to the brim of inspirational travel photos (and French Bulldogs of course!) and my weekend of starting to explore London like a tourist has rekindled my love of travel and adventure. It might be a while before I feel like sitting down with my guide books and a map but I’m ok with that; part of the reason I started working on a plan so early on was because I knew these hiccups would happen. It’s been a tough learning curve but I’m slowly learning that it’s ok to not be doing something 100% of the time; it’s ok to take a step back and take a break from things – even everything if that’s what you need. And, on that note, I’m about to put my pen and notepad down and hit the hay for the night!