Woohoo it’s Friday! This evening could not have come around soon enough. I know Friday evenings aren’t about negativity but I promised myself that my blogs would be honest and I’d write about whatever was on my mind.
Today has been tough – I know that I should be grateful for all of the opportunities available to me and don’t get me wrong, I really am, but today I feel completely overwhelmed.
Being in Court today meant a sleepless night last night and a very early start this morning leaving me bleary-eyed and somewhat grumpy. Those of you who know me, will know that I do not cope well with being tired! Sitting on the train on my way home this afternoon, I started to think about the list of things I need to work through this weekend. My mind then wandered on to what I need to do before we move, what I need to do to get a new job and what I need to do for our wedding party – yes, I am already married but we’re greedy and are having a party this year (it’s a long story and probably better off told at another time). Pretty soon I felt out of my depth and unsure about what steps to take next and even started doubting whether or not the move was a good idea at all.
I had some really helpful advice from an old friend last night and re-reading our messages took the edge off the nervous feeling I had. Some online reading helped further but the sheer range of roles available combined with the long list of skills required for each role is unnerving. I’m in the process of working on my CV and trying to tailor it more the charity sector but today I feel completely lost.
I don’t mean to complain and end the week on a bad note, in fact, quite the opposite. My point here is that it’s ok not to feel 100% positive and enthusiastic all of the time! I’m going to take a step back from the job search, CV editing and flat hunting tonight and relax in front of a film with my husband. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be back to being bright-eyed and bewildered – let’s face it, I’m always going to be a bit bewildered in this world of ours!
I hope you all have a lovely weekend!